Just wish I were with you right now. ♥

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Went out last night,
went to a party...


I felt very out of place,
all the girls were beautiful,
and were wearing pretty things.


There were a lot of couples there too,
I guess that that is expected at parties,
but it made me miss my boyfriend a lot.


In a way, I want to hurry up and move,
because I do not seem to fit in with my group of friends.
They're all so very different to me...


I constantly feel like an outcast at school,
and at the moment, at my brothers house too.
I am not sure if its just because of my mind frame at the moment,
or my constant bad mood.


Either way,
I just want to go home to my Mum.
Do my homework,
read my books,
talk on the phone with my Boyfriend,
sleep in my water bed,
and shower in my shower.
Oh, and go for my runs
and workouts.


I am sick and tired of feeling so secluded.


It'd be nice to get some sleep too,
this insomnia really isn't ideal.


Hopefully I stop complaining soon.


Until then, I'm out.

Lets see what the night brings

As the sun sets over another day,
the sky darkens to a deep navy blue.
On some occasions
stars twinkle across the sky,
creating a magical glow.
The moon rises to the highest point in the sky.


Sometimes, when its a full moon,
the most spectacular thing occurs...
The moon has a ring of light shining
kilometers around it,
in the sky.
You showed me that,
you called it a halo.


It means a lot to me now,
and I hope you propose to me,
under the moon,
when its shining with a halo.






Only twenty-seven days until I move in with you.
I want to be with you for the rest of my life,
I wouldn't take this step if I didn't.
I hope we last,
you're worth everything.

Day two:

Okay, today was no where near as easy as yesterday.
Last night I had another bad night, 
this insomnia is getting a little annoying.
I am sick of laying awake all night.


I got up this morning to two very sick nephews.
Conner was in a bossy, annoying mood.
Blake was so sick that he just cried.
He didn't sleep or eat until this afternoon.


I am sick as well, and on top of not sleeping,
I am exhausted.
I have a lot of homework this week.
I am not looking forward to it.
I am starting to stress out a lot...


 I just want to have my boyfriend with me,
then everything would be a lot easier to deal with.


I am falling to pieces and I am afraid no one can help me out of this.


I hope things start to settle down.


I need more time to do things.
I cannot do all my assignment,
Study for my exams,
Pack to move 7 hours away
ALL IN THIRTY-THREE DAYS!


:(  Gee this is emotionally ruining me.. !

Day one:

Well today was the first day of me staying at my oldest brothers house.
I think it went well, I am a little tired though,
but I'm unsure as to whether its caused from looking after the boys.
I still have approximately 13 more days of baby sitting duties to go.


My newest nephew, Seth, has little dimples,
they're very cute. I noticed them when I was eating his cheeks :)


The second youngest nephew, Blake, called me Aunty Jessy for the first time
(he is only little, so he can't talk a great deal)


The oldest, Conner, was a little sulky today, as he has a big sore on his knee
and it still hurts... But we did play some random war game on the xbox.


I love my boys...


I wish I didn't have so much homework to attend to as well, though.
I am stressed and exhausted already.


Boring blogger, out.

With a million words running through my head, I still don't know what to say. I come up blank every time, as if I am emptied from the inside to the outside. I feel the shell of last year, covering everything I have worked for. I feel as if I am taking steps backwards, falling. I need this to stop. I am so confused.